The small matter that matters

歌

2011-06-22T11:14:00.002+08:00

有多久了。。。一首歌能让我感动。也许甚至像小孩一样哭着笑着。

不愧是姚若龙的词 + 林宥嘉的歌声。

Wee Lurve Uu

2011-04-25T21:12:00.003+08:00

The only people who can still say "we love you~"; after you threw tandrum, cried with all the snots in the world and argued with - is your family.

Learn to never take them for granted. Should anyone besides these angels loves you this way, don't let them go.

Ever.

小小的

2011-04-21T12:29:00.006+08:00

好开心哦！

昨天和子欣庆生时（生日快乐子欣！！！），在“家好月圆”那家餐厅隔壁买到好吃的木薯糕！

那块小小糕点的味道和感觉，都像小时候妈妈买给我吃的那种。不太甜，还可以吃到木薯的纤维 =）

那Aunty还有卖我喜欢的糯米糍呢~~

不过。。。小小的糕点，害我对妈咪更多添了点。。。

小小的想念~~

忍啊！考完试就可以回家了！加油加油加油！！！

My Volunteerism

2011-03-21T21:41:00.005+08:00

According to dictionary.com, volunteerism means practice of volunteering one's time or talents for charitable, educational, or other worthwhile activities willingly, and without pay.

With that, I think I should confess: I started this post as a show of support for my friend's campaign, and oh, supposedly to advocate a greater cause of humanity.

For a long time, I don't remember lending my helping hand to others without being asked or told. Unless we take into account my extra-curricular activity in secondary school as a trained junior first aider...Or my recent trip to the Salvation Army Children's Home in Ipoh.

I'm standing on the left, bottom row; standing next to and behind me my fellow classmates.

To be utterly honest I'm not entirely proud of that trip because when one of the children there asked me: "you came here because of your coursework?" in Mandarin, I had to bluff to not upset her.

Echoing her words...My conscience wouldn't let me off. I spent the next few hours after the trip twisting her words over in my head, turned in upside-down and pondering how I should feel. So I did the planning and budgeting along with 14 others in my course, figured out all the activities for our 2-hour stint there and did the shopping for all the souvenirs at the only department store in Kampar, Tesco clutching a calculator...And I did it all because of homework? That couldn't and shouldn't, be the only reason.

Slowly, I try to look on the brighter side. Perhaps then, it did not matter why I was there in first place. I realized what I should really be concerned about is whether or not it's for a good cause, or if I had been able to help others. Cliche but, what if volunteerism is just a simple matter of giving what we could, and seeing someone's smile in return?

If that is the case, I've just taken my first step after a long, long time of negligence to my surroundings. Moreover, I've taken more than I gave from this assignment, though I no longer see it as work. I got to know 14 of my classmates better, half of them I've barely spoken to since first year (I'm in my final semester in year two), meet more people, renewed gratitude to my parents, a stronger sense-of-self, and even...

A big shred of happiness.

Well, I'm smiling for my volunteerism now.

Ipoh Children's Home

2011-03-07T11:04:00.003+08:00

Went to a Children's Home in Ipoh yesterday. It was a crazy day, limbo rock, musical chair, rafia string...All the craziness is still etched in my muscles =P Physically-unfit me.

But I felt, we could really do more instead of just studying. Every semesters we count down the days to tests, deadlines, exams and holidays...Voila! Another term has gone and my brain would be drained of all information.

We planned everything before hand, but all our original plans were jumbled up when we got there and I landed with a group of high school friends. They remind me of myself, thinking about growing up and out of all the awkwardness, but feeling that everything seemed so far off in the future. I think the awkwardness is still in me somehow.

But the two hours yesterday also proves that the clock's hands turn steadily with its rhythm, tick-tock-tick, no matter what choices we make. There's so much possibilities...Why not choose the one that means the most? One step at a time?

And say...We could all go back someday =)

Lyrics

2011-01-10T22:54:00.004+08:00

I have to quote this. It stuck.

"There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspirations
Not just another negotiation..." - Sophie, Music & Lyrics

O gawd....

2010-12-10T13:01:00.003+08:00

Gosh...You're just so stubborn you never learn...

And they happen every, single, wonderful day.

=_________________________________=

Lions on the Pride Rock

2010-07-21T12:37:00.003+08:00

I think it has been one week since Dr. Chew mentioned about taking babies out into the sun before 10am to help break down bilirubin so babies can be treated and overcome jaundice.

Clinical Biochemistry rocks. Now I know even lions have neonatal jaundice.

POP QUIZ

2010-07-12T17:15:00.004+08:00

Just thought that my neurobiology lecturer was in a really good mood today. Always thought he's got some sense of humour, but today was a little...different...Atmosphere-wise.

After I entered the class from filling my water bottle, he said:"Ok since everyone is NOT here, lets have a pop quiz,". At first I thought he was unhappy from all the empty seats in the usually-full hall.

Well, World Cup was at final last night(finally..no more "GOAL!!" disturbing my already depleted sleeping hours), and I heard from a friend they only slept at 6am because the game lengthen for a half hour more, plus the ceremonious trophy-awarding session.

Expressionless, he began to type away, and the question spells:

POP QUIZ:
Compare and contrast: Squid, Octopus, calamari and cuttle fish?

One of the reasons why I like his class, despite his austerity >80% of the times. Thumbs-up =)

ps: Suppose he won a bet last night? o.O

By the way, Say hi =)

To the giant squid.

To the cuttlefish.

And How can we forget? Welcome to Paul! The infamous World Cup Octopus!

I would like very much to get a proper picture, but trust me. If you google images for calamari, you'll most likely see what I see @@

来得及

2010-06-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

刚从收音机听到的。好听耶！

突然觉得，人生偶尔有太多的不舍，太多的来不及。也对，跟时间赛跑，我的反应还有点迟钝。

想，贪心一点，在剩下的日子里许下比遗憾更多的愿，爱惜疼我的人多一点。

我相信来得及，还可以挽留来不及与回不去。=）

Knock knock....

2010-05-30T18:43:00.001+08:00

Hi Kampar...

I'm back. But I promise you I'll be gone again in another 17 weeks.

Six dots

2010-04-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

I hate this.

Coming here and whine.

The coursework have gone abit crazy this semester.

I'm a little out of sort.

I don't know how should I feel sometimes.

I get angry. But after 3 minutes I'm not that sure what or who I'm mad at.

Frustrated?

Trapped?

I don't know. Don't want to either.

I guess...Life's like this.

Hopefully it gets better in time.

Forgotten piece

2010-02-25T08:27:00.005+08:00

Fell for this song two years ago and then just...forgot about it =p New artists emerge continuously in the industry and new songs flowed. Music goes in and out like a trend sometimes.

But a good song would remain a good song even after many years, and you just fall for it over and over again.

So...I thought I should post this up. =) Oh, and the lyrics are quite catchy in places.

Collide lyrics
Songwriters: Griffin, Kevin; Day, Howie;

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

Beautiful, beautiful song

2009-11-29T23:38:00.003+08:00

Another wonderful song by Sara Bareilles. I don't know why but this one definitely caught my heart, in a breathless sort of way.

This video is fan-made, so it include lyrics. Hopefully it would not be taken off from Youtube :)

On some days...

2009-11-16T23:48:00.003+08:00

Your electricity got cut. Yeah, thats what happen when I was in school. My housemate who was alone when the incident took place, happened to be cleaning her room.

And the lights went off.(our house is dark even in the day)

Like that. Poof! At first she thought its short circuit, then after checking the fuse box she realized: we hadn't pay the bills.

So, we may be low on pocket money, but would we risk not being able to use the PC?
NO!!!!!!!!! But why the cut?

1.We were on holiday when the bills came.
2.Transport problem
3.Our non-student housemate hadn't show her face in a week and we couldn't ask for her share.
4. The warning pink slip only come two days ago.

TNB were so desperate they resort to bully us into remembering the bills..

Heck. Have they ever been SO EFFICIENT in ANYTHING before?

We were promise electricity at 5pm. We have to call thrice for the worker to reconnect us, at 6:45pm...

Enough of TNB.

I needed the comp very badly because I wanted to practice for my practical test tomorrow. So I was toying around with some of the MS Excel 2003 function that I wasn't familiar with, and my roommate and I ended laughing over some careless act I pulled.

Our conver:

Me: Oh shit!! I just lost it!
RM: Press Undo la...
Me: No its not that simple...
RM: I told you Excel is hard because sometimes Undo don't work..
Me: Its not that. I lost the toolbar.

I was having too much fun to recall which button I clicked then.

Luckily I found the button without much trouble.

View>Toolbars>Formatting

=~=

Love this Song

2009-11-14T15:52:00.002+08:00

Love the lyrics. The melody. And her voice :)

Beautiful.

Another day

2009-10-25T21:34:00.002+08:00

Killing pumpkin is hard to do.

But with a friend, its a whole lot easier :)

Not sure what is going on, but just got this weird feeling that things are not going to turn out easy this semester.

And I dread it.

Yay!

2009-09-30T01:14:00.003+08:00

Hooraayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holiday and Home!!!

HERE I COME!!!

pleash..There's no bright side...

2009-09-26T16:03:00.003+08:00

"If you can't find the bright side,
POLISH THE DARK SIDE"

Quoting Fishie
& Mr. Tan
:)

代沟

2009-09-17T18:31:00.005+08:00

一个是天才。

顾城 "一代人"

黑夜给了我黑色的眼睛
我却用它寻找光明

而另一个...

HT说"这代人"

考试给了我黑色的眼圈
我却用它挑战考卷

只不过是考试恐惧症侯群的一个。。。

远和近

2009-09-07T01:27:00.002+08:00

星期五抄下的 , 想和大家分享我爱上的 , 短短的诗词。

顾城 - 远和近

你,
一会看我,
一会看云。

我觉得,
你看我时很远,
你看云时很近。

One of those good songs

2009-09-01T09:38:00.004+08:00

One of my latest favourite. I'm hooked. How could you not? Its very sweet, yet so simple. As easy as 1234 =>

Enjoy.

Lost ship

2009-08-06T12:47:00.003+08:00

I've just consulted my A.A this morning. So, we chatted and she asked several questions. And according to her, me, or if that matters, anyone taking biomedical science...

Are sorta destined to be hiding our noses in books for the next three years. Well, looking at them and reading and trying to memorise them are complete different matters. So now, I'm living in denial. Even when I wasn't feeling all that tired, I don't feel like touching my bookssss....

S.M.S man...S.M.S....

If S.O.S = . . . _ _ _ . . .

then S.M.S = . . . _ _ . . .

ps: If SOS= Save Our Soul, then SMS = sAVE mY sOUL

Gee...

2009-07-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

FYI...

The move-in occured last night. A few hours after my he-housemate move out.

Highly efficient?

You bet.

I have no idea

2009-07-27T20:38:00.000+08:00

Whats gonna happen?

There will be new people moving into DaHouse aka my hostel. In September i think. I heard that she is currently working in Tesco .That means, she is not a student...Hmmm..Wonder if she would do the grocery shopping for us...

We(my housemate and I) got the news when we were having dinner last night. Since the "houselord"(landlord won't be appropriate now, would it?)mentioned it, I didn't think they'd change their mind about arranging the move-in. So when they called up and said they are willing to listen to our will, all I said was "No comment.Its up to them isn't it?". Why they had bothered calling, I have no idea.I mean, come on, I wouldn't think twice if I'm the "houselord", would I?

Since housemate-to-be says she okay about moving in, well...

No problem on our behalf. RIGHT?

Oh and BTW, my he-housemate's room, no wait, his ex-room, is cleared. I mean OUT, in less than 24 hours.

Efficient right? =-}

写失

2009-07-24T10:20:00.000+08:00

心情
有点烂

书包
有点重

脾气
有点坏

委屈?
就一点

不甘心?
也有点...

不想吐
不吐不快

不想哭
哭笑不得

不想悟
避重就轻?

黄老师,
其实,
从一年前,就觉得金宝很诗意...
可是,
最近好象,比较多失意...

Greyness and its tail...

2009-07-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

A shadow passed, quickly and quietly before the bedroom door...

Everyone was on 'alert' mode, anxious due to its undue arrival...

And the dustpan, sat still in front of the sofa...

It's got a small head, a big butt...

And it got stuck at the door.

If you guys remember this

2009-07-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

It was during sem 2 foundation. We were havin maths lecture, and Mr. Yeoh asked:

"Any question?"Then a guy raised up his hand and said: "I don't understand."

Mr Yeoh:"Which part you don't understand?"

The guy:"The whole thing."

Mr Yeoh said this befor he explain the question again:"The whole thing? How can? If you go to the doctor and he asks you "Mana sakit?" and you say "SEMUA SAKIT".Like that is it?"

And everyone ended up laughing. Old story. But I like it.

My life according to Carrie Underwood

2009-07-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people Uhm. Woops. You can't use the band I used.

Repost as "my life according to (band)"

Are you a male or female:
I know you won't
=no,I won't wanna be a guy.

Describe yourself:
The more boys I meet
=The more I want to change the toilet seat...it rhymes(ok la,it doesn't relate..)

How do you feel:
All American Girl
=*looks at the mirror*...I feel pretty much Asian actually...

Describe where you currently live:
I told you so
=Ya lo! I knew it'd be something like this again.

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Flat On The Floor
=Wish I could. The floor is spotless.

Your favorite form of transportation:
Home Sweet Home
=Anything I can go home in. And fast.

Your best friend is:
Crazy Dreams
=Yeah, its crazy to dream for clones for them!!

You and your best friends are:
Starts with Goodbye
=WRONG!! We started with "you can speak mandarin right?".

What's the weather like:
Before he cheats
=Like..how should the weather be like?

Favorite time of day:
Some Hearts
=Whenever my heart feels like it =>

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Twisted
=NOOOO!!!...Ok la, I'd admit its a lil twisted sometimes...

What is life to you:
That's where it is
=It is where it is...In KAMPAR..#$%^&*(&^$

Your fear:
I Ain't in Checotah Anymore
=I ain't in Selangor all the time...

What is the best advice you have to give:
So Small
=Don't grow up.

Thought for the Day:
Last Name
=Keep reminding me. I worry I'd forget.

How I would like to die:
The Night Before
=In fact...yesh, I felt like dying last night...

My soul's present condition:
Wasted
=err...Define wasted...

My motto:
Jesus take the wheel
=Thank you. Would you take my tests for me as well? I know you'd be brilliant.

I tag:
Svenni
Serena
Jia Wen
And anyone who have blogs and want to do it...

Durian!!!!

2009-07-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

So the title spells...

Makes me think of my dad. He was the one who 'dissect' the fruit every time while we(my family and I) sat in one circle around him and the durian...haha...Sounds like a solemn ceremony. But that is what I call spending quality time together.Man, those were the time back home,right in the tiny kitchen at the back.

Everyone in my family LOVES durian. Couldn't get enough of it.I remember there was one that was particularly difficult to open, and my dad accidentally cut himself. Felt so bad at the time.

Then just this evening, Svenni's friend Sophie came and gave us some durians.Unopened ones....Oppsy...All of us are anticipating the flesh, but none had any experience with the shell.

Well, someone had to dissect it...

I did it.

Because I wanted to learn how to.

When I'm home next time around, I'll be the one to 'dissect' the durian =>

Tagged...Sven ni...

2009-06-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan!=) At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

1. how old are you?
= 19 plus 10 days..

2. are you single?
= Uh-huh

3. at what age do you think you'll get married?
= I'm there when I get there

4. do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
= Refer to Question 2

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
= My Knight in Shining Armour...Whoever that is.

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
= Members from my sister and brotherhood ;)

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
= Traditional.Indoor. And air-conditioned...lol...

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
= Somewhere beautiful and romantic i guess...

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?
= How on E-arth should I know?

10. will that include your exes?
= That would depends on if I have exES, or NOT.

11. how many layers of cake do you want?
= I love cakes :)Depends on the taste though.

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
= I thought it last a whole day...

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
= It depends. On my mood :)

14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
= Fine Dining.

15. champagne or red wine?
= Both =>

16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
= Days after wedding.You need to pack and get your tickets I suppose?

17. money or household items?
= Huh???

18. how many kids would you like to have?
= Again,I get there when I get there ;p

19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
= Why not? But I'll need a cameraman.

20. whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
= Nicole, Mei Wah, Serena

无以言

2009-06-26T17:18:00.000+08:00

上华文研讨课（Tutorial）的我们,多半都保持“沉默是金”的姿态。但研讨课目的，不就是研讨吗？为了吸引我们打开金口(@_@!)说话，还在课程大纲的评分标准，给“课堂表现”那部分，留了10%。

黄老师昨天说：“好啦，我们就一直保持沉默。两看相不厌，对吗？”

课室一片宁静，发出了一丝丝，吃吃，尴尬的笑声。对于《活着》这部老戏，虽然有不少感触，但却不堪把自己的想法，一一坦露人前。毕竟，对中国的革命道路与斗争，了解的也不多。但我想多半人的无言，也不一定都概括于“沉默是金”之下吧。

今下午的讲仪（lecture），让我茅塞顿开。今天上的课是有关‘古诗’的历史和由来。孔子于《论语》书中的某一言辞针对古诗的重要性，道：“不学诗，无以言”。。。

我才明白，为何我们“无言”。

New Member!

2009-06-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

Ta-da! Here comes the new family for my plushies! She's(Yes,its a she) the blue one sitting in the middle,with a pair of plasters over the...is there a mouth underneath there?

I have absolutely no idea. But it's cute right? I have to admit though, it looked a little...bulli-able! Muahahahahaha.....

阿弥陀佛

2009-06-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

经过多天的炎热天气...
阿弥陀佛,金宝终于下雨了!

不管怎样,今天总得补偿多天的睡眠了!
不用当串烧了!

Tagged...by the same fella...

2009-06-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

遊戲規則:被點到名字的人要在自已的blog裡寫下答案。去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題，再加上一個新的，傳給其它8個人。列出其它8個被點名的人，到他們的blog裡留言通知。被點名者不得拒絕。被點名的人將會得到大家的祝福(認真)，並且所有願望都會實現。

01.你認為分手後的男女朋友還能做普通朋友嗎?
答：看心情和当时的情况吧...

02.你最希望從朋友(不包括愛人)那裡得到的是什麼？
答：真心实意.

03.最近最鬱悶的事？
答:你说呢?我是个学生嘞...

04.最受不了自已哪個缺點？
答：真的要选啊?很多诶...

05.金钱与家人你会选者什么？
答：家人吧...金不换!

06.說出點你名的人的3個優點？
答:很幽默,耐心.最重要是我们是死党!

07.你現在最想擁有的是什麼？
答：一天三十六小时.

08.你的夢想是什麼？
答：有点难...太多了..

09.喜欢现在的生活吗？
答：不...我爱它!虽然有点烦!哈哈!

10. 你最受不了什么人？
答：我咯...

11.什么人是你最欣賞的？
答：疼我的人...哈!世间少有诶!

12.這輩子做過最瘋狂的事情是什麼？還想從事的瘋狂行為是什麼？
答：嗐...心有余而力不足...

13.十年之後，你想過什麼樣的生活？你打算如何實現呢？
答：二十九岁的生活.

14.有想過放棄現有生活去流浪嗎？如果有，為的是什麼？
答: 没必要.

15.如果中樂透三億會怎麼辦？
答：心脏负荷不了...晕...

16.如果不幸負債400萬，你打算如何償還債務？
答：乞讨!哈哈哈...可能吗? 倾家荡产呗!

17.如果有男/女友的你喜欢上另一个你心中的梦中情人，你会怎么做？
答：不知道...太复杂了...

18.喜欢怎样的另一半？
答：他一定要有50分!因为我也只有50分...嘿..

19.一個月多少錢才算OK?
答：有人会嫌钱多的么? 量力而为吧...

20.最想到哪里举行婚礼？
答：怪问题...答不来...

21.雖然很八股題了，但還是想問一下，愛人好還是被愛好？
答：两个都好.但自爱最好.

22. 今年生日想收到什么礼物?
答：休想骗我说出口...哈哈...

23.最希望自己具備哪一種超能力？
答：随心所欲的能力.爱怎样就怎样咯!

24.如果有来生，你希望自己会是一个什么样的人？
答：文武双全...哈哈...

I tag :
...Nah...Whoever likes to do it can go ahead...

Damn good in science

2009-06-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

Had my structural biochemistry lecture just this afternoon. No, I'm not gonna discuss about my progress here. But I can tell you i forgot 90% of all my basics.

My lecturer ask us why we only have <1% white blood cells in our blood.I was thinking, isn't that normal? I mean as in, isn't it suppose to be like that?

Here's what she said:"Why? Because God made it that way? No? Wait, yes, God made it that way,but there must be a reason behind it right? Why?"

And heck, now I'm thinking:God must be pretty good in science...

Chamber of Secrets

2009-06-03T21:09:00.000+08:00

Just this afternoon, me and my friends were wondering if we have tutorial for Principles of Nutrition since its only the first week.

Just to be sure, we went in search for the tutorial room during our break time.The number of the room on our timetable says D 103B,so we walk towards the end of block D on the first floor.

After a few minutes, room D 103D, and D 103C came into sight...then the toilet.

Does the room D 103B even exists? In doubt, one of my friends asked:"Did you copied your timetable wrongly?" So ALL three of us check our timetables. Nope, no such luck.Do we have to speak some mysterious "UTAR-tongue" or walk through walls to get to the room?

So we stoned outside room D 103C for several seconds.Then we decided to check the floor plan of the first floor.

D 103B, we discovered, is INSIDE D 103C...right at the back...

What the heck......

Yakking

2009-05-12T06:25:00.000+08:00

Woke up at four in the A.M...

Why is the weather so damn freakin hot???

I rolled,twisted and turned and tried to sleep..

Heck...Oh well, I console myself its good to wake up early. Good for health...（good ma foot,I went to bed at 0011）

I thought of the library book I had to renew, so I log in to OPAC...

Sh*t.No checkbox for book renewal.

Why? Because my ID expires on the 22nd of May...

WTH????!!! #￥$%^&*%$%^&*$%^&

Who says our sch is a non-profit organization?

In need....

2009-05-10T20:08:00.000+08:00

Some people..

Are seriously in need of Appeton Weight Gain.

Or Enfa Kid A+.

Or Dumex 3+.

Or any milk powder with DHA, AHA, to help with their brain cells' growth.

They need to GROW UP. DIRE NEED.

Recently,I met my share of evil and childish people on Earth. Childish is tolerable, but EVIL is NOT. Heck...I mean the major-"mojo jojo"...Wearing Power Puff Girls' smiles...shivers...

And I always thought ~~ALL~~ OLDER people are MORE mature. My intention of stereotyping any species here = ZERO. So, if what I'm saying here prick anyone's brain or guts ,pardon me. I'm just...irritated and frustrated.

妹妹

2009-05-09T11:06:00.000+08:00

倚赖不知不觉，成了习惯。坏习惯。

忽然觉得自己是否应该有个可被家人依赖的肩膀？

还有太多太多我不懂的事，但。。

应该换我担心他们了吧？

最近，都呆在姐的家。她 Student house 的 housemates，大部分都比我年长。

长话短说 - 是大哥大姐们。

但，换个角度看看。虽然，我看似被锁在这年龄框框里，但我也可以跟他们一样努力生活，学习如何鞭策自己，就算没有父母亲的监督，也依然懂得照顾自己。

就算哭泣，渐渐也懂得如何停驻泛滥眼眶的泪水。

有人告诉我：你知道吗？兄长们很自然地会担心你。因为你是妹妹。

我说：哦。。。

她又说：那是一种福气。有人疼爱难道不好吗？

我只晓得发愣。。。

有个声音说：笨蛋，难道怕不会变老？

嗯，是的。妹妹，是一种福气 :)

Climbing that Grain of Sand

2009-05-08T14:33:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you a story.Despite what someone might say about emo-ing...

There was a girl, who knew this boy since primary school. They practically grew up together, and were good friends. The boy was quiet and reserved, but he was outstanding in several aspects: sports,academy,competitions, you name it. He sure did well in school.

They ended in the same high school.Due to the similarity their names pronounces, they were often tease by their classmates. Because of a certain reason, they cease talking to each other. In school, they brush past each other like strangers, not even 'hi' and 'bye' were uttered. Though the girl refuse to let the situation persist, she didn't take the first step to initiate a conversation.

Time flew by. One day in school, the boy fainted. The teachers sent him to the local hospital. And for the first time, the boy and the girl talk to each other. When asked why he fainted, he explained that he had some accident recently and was experiencing vertigo at the time. But whatever it was, the connection between him and the girl was linked once again.

Years went by. As expected, the boy scored well in his exams. This time, they ended up in different colleges.The girl went to a place farther from home, and the boy started his tertiary education in a local college. He insisted to his parents that he would go to the place the girl went to, but his parents refused to let him out of their sight. So, he settled where his parents wanted him to.

So after a while, the girl thought of visiting him, so she went over to his place. His parents was packing his things and explained that he had been staying in hospital for two days already. That was the time the girl realized he had cancer since many years before. Since the time he fainted in high school. He kept this from all of his friends, and struggled to move on, all the while undergoing the excruciating torture of chemotherapy. Yet, he did not complaint for once. He sees each treatment as a battle for his life, and fought valiantly to be healthy again. He wanted to be independent, to be capable, and not be relying on his parents.

After about a year, the girl went to a meeting for her Buddhism association. The person who led the prayer, announces that one of their member from the young man division had been hospitalized as he was in a critical condition. He expresses his hope that everyone present would pray for his recovery.Who knew? Coincidentally, the girl and the boy was also in the same Buddhist association.

She realized then.The damaging effect of the disease undermining the boy's health condition finally set in. Later that day, she and her friends went to the hospital to visit him. But this time, he refuse to see them. He'd even told his mom to prevent them from going into his ward. He says that he'd recover, and when he does, he would be the one to contact them so that they could go out together. For supper or tea. Someday,when he recovers.

But that day did not came. The last word he uttered to his father was:"I lost". He had lost the long-hard battle for his life.

This seems like a story we all read in essays. But it's real. Real enough for me to be hearing it for the first time from the girl yesterday.

Sometimes, the mountain we've been climbing, is just a grain of sand. Come to think of it,the problems some of us face everyday are no more than our exams, relationship, family problems, and so forth. I'm not saying as if it is easy for any of us or anything... We fought to stay above our problems, but he fought to stay ALIVE.I couldn't imagine each battle meant the next breath I take.

The girl later expresses her hope for everyone listening along with me: Don't wait if you wish to talk to your friend. And she and her friends later learn to take initiative to call each other up, and not take each other for granted.

Tagged

2009-05-04T13:12:00.000+08:00

Here goes nothing!

25 Random Things:

1. The wind is blowing outside...'Sweatness'...
2. KL is full of high-rise buildings.
3. Counting down to 13th of May 2009.
4. Racking my brain.No Random-plague damn!
5. I'm a foodie!
6. My birthday is coming soon enough. Funny it's on the same day every year...
7. Sven you'll be so broke!muahahaha...
8. I write short paragraphs and save them as drafts.
9. If we are what we eat, alot of drivers have got to be squirrels.
10.movies...movies...movies...MOVIES!
11.I'm stuck...
12.Why the heck do I miss you people?(sulk)
13.Miao, meow, miow, miau, miaw,ngiao(foreign cat)...woof*3(outsider)...ow-wu...
14.More people should have participated Earth Hour.
15.KL night scenery is beautiful if viewed from the 11th Floor.
16.Can people become evil themselves without knowing it?
17.My driving skills are rusted.
18.I wear my heart on my sleeve...Sometimes...most of the time...
19.Define innocence. No, don't use Oxford dictionary.
20.Heck, why isn't it no.25 yet?
21.I hate waiting for exam results.
22.I love watching people who's concentrating on their tasks :)
23.Chapter 1 in university is gone.
24.To leave behind proof of ever being a Homo Sapien is a necessity.
25.Finally!

Quoting a friend

2009-05-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

Went back home right after exam and meet up with some of my old school mates from SMK USJ 13.Yay! Finally after so long! Muahahaha...

Since Cinderella(s) has to be home by twelve,so they(my school mates) had to send us(me n Sven) back to Sven's place. While I was sitting in the backseat,someone said: Our friend is looking better than ever.Boyfriend seems her ultimate life force,geez...She's livelier than ever now."

My friend(It's a she) who was sitting on the passenger seat said jokingly:"Yeah lo! We better get ourselves one as well! And quick!" Laughs.

An ol-school reply:"But there are other things to worry about on top of all the challenging subjects in Degree...Better off trying to ace them all before that."

I figure certain things are definitely out of our hands while others are in.

My other friend who's behind the wheel(FYI its a HE), replied the classic sentence. No appropriate feedback anywhere this time.

"You know what? 'Boyfriend' has got to be your toughest subject ever."

Something fell off the seat.Right.

Exam time....

2009-04-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

You can do what the bunnies do when you're stress out...But,please remember:YOU CAN'T FLY!

PlAnEt EaRtH

2009-04-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

In a few days, It will be the EARTH DAY on 22nd of April 2009!

This day is designed to inspire awareness and appreciation for the Earth's environment. It is held annually during both spring in the northern hemisphere and autumn in the southern hemisphere.

So, why not take some time to look at other living creatures sharing planet Earth with us? I found this trailer on Youtube and thought it would be nice to post it here.

This trailer is about the first film in the Disneynature series, EARTH, narrated by JAMES EARL JONES, tells the remarkable story of three animal families of Elephants, Whales and Polar Bears and their amazing journey across the planet we all call home. Earth combines rare action, unimaginable scale and impossible locations by capturing the most intimate moments of our planets wildest and most elusive creatures.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c7sbkKsMo9s

A little info on the production of the movie "EARTH":

Genres: Action/Adventure, Art/Foreign and Documentary

Running Time: 1 hr. 39 min.

Release Date: April 22nd, 2009

MPAA(Motion Picture Association of America) Rating: G

Distributors: Disneynature

Production Co.: Greenlight Media, BBC Worldwide, BBC Television Listing

Produced in: Germany

Starring: Patrick Stewart, James Earl Jones

Directed by: Alastair Fothergill

Produced by: Andre Sikojev, Nikolaus Weil, Stefan Beiten

Category: Entertainment

If you ask me,I'll give it to you in one word:MAGNIFICENT.

To All TE 1s

2009-04-15T16:02:00.001+08:00

A year...Whiz and gone by just like. HOWEVER, it was a wonderful and joyous year to me. I learnt(and forget) a lot of things, cycle, eat, sleep, and burnt a lot of midnight oil(padan muka). And laugh a lot. Did a lot of nothing also.

Last night was....Great! Very tiring, very frustrating that I couldn't think of any songs and got splashed. My legs felt like lead from standing for too long, and my hair smelt like flour. And thanks for the cute egg, you guys!(Who drew the cat anyway?Damn, its too nice to eat!)

It was definitely one of those times I would say "Its not what we do , the occasion is what's important". It signifies a transition period, a mark. Like the white pebbles left behind by Hansel in the fable 'Hansel and Gretel'. It was fun, and it meant a tremendous lot in every way possible.

Not just the regular fun though, I went home with mixed feelings in my stale brainjuice and a tugging war in the four-chamber organ: I sure felt glad that we complete the year(about to), the downside is,we won't see each other that often, won't attend classes together except some, won't embrace 2010 together like we did 2009, won't be messing around with each other as much and etc.

At least all of us would still be in Kampar in the few years to come. At least we're not like the others from Art stream, who would mostly be separated to different campuses. I couldn't imagine having to start all over again. Being in a new place, new class with new people all over again.

I'm not very good at expressing myself verbally. And with my 'occasional' mood swings, it often gives people the wrong impression. So...If I had ever did you guys wrong, please forgive me('It's too late to 'pologize, it's too la-aaaate....').

We all came from different places, and will be heading different directions in the future. Perhaps everyone has gone through some rough patches, ups and downs throughout the year(C'est la vie!). But whatever it is, I'm glad that we met each other. From my part, there's just so much to say, trying to sum up all the experiences in an entire year.

If speech fail me, words will not. If words do fail me,hopefully this song can convey what my heart wants to say.

We are one LUCKY bunch

2009-04-13T15:07:00.000+08:00

I wish to share this video with everyone who can see this blog. Be grateful for the food on your table.

View this movie at cultureunplugged.com

This film is about the hunger and poverty brought about by Globalization. There are 10,000 people dying everyday due to hunger and malnutrition. This short film shows a forgotten portion of the society. The people who live on the refuse of men to survive. What is inspiring is the hope and spirituality that never left this people.

Director:Ferdinand Dimadura
Produced in: 2005

Sensei and I

2009-04-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

Went back to KL during the weekend and joined some events. Just last night, I went to the Kaikan in Cheras for the first time to attend a Student Division "Gosho Study Meet". Gosh the place is HUGE! And it has a very welcoming atmosphere to it, very homey :) Though it was very dark, and the ground was damp from the rain. After chanting for about half an hour or so, we actually had a sharing session, titled "Sensei and I". Ikeda Sensei is a prolific writer, poet, peace activist, educator, and interpreter of Nichiren Buddhism.

I thought hard then. What and who is he to me? I know him through my parents when I was young, who are members of SGM(Soka Gakkai Malaysia). My mom told me he's the president of SGI, Soka Gakkai International. Then who knows where my father got it, portrait of Ikeda Sensei, and hung it in the living room. Its still in the living room now.

To me, he's is someone who is really really wise, and kind. Firm but kind. Though he's really far from me(geographically speaking, as he's in Japan), but he's close at heart. I know him through some of the books he wrote, and certain record of his conversations with other people. The things he said could be BETTER than "Chicken Soup for the (whatever) Soul" , more heartfelt and warm. For someone like me who gets lost constantly in my own world, I reach out more. To the world. And that I shouldn't shut myself in whenever the road gets bumpy.

My parents is now as far as Sensei is to me(geographically as well), but we are holding on through our faith and heart. And we establishes a wireless connection, something we hadn't really done before as we didn't have to. DUH! Come on,they were right infront of my face! But I guess we are all the same. We don't really know what we've got when it's nearest to us, when it's within the stretch of our fingers. I didn't like to admit this, but now that I'm seeing my mom and dad less, I miss them.

So all of you people out there, wait no longer and start feeling grateful now. You don't know what it's like to have people who can accept all your faults, and still love you and will do whatever they could for you being right beside you. Life is so damn much easier then, in numerous aspects.

Life is a battlefield, sometimes you can't just shrug and says "C'est la vie" and wave things off. I have mood swings worse than the change of weather in Kampar(Oops! My bad!). Prone to leakage at times, a well known fact to people who watch me as I stretch vertically over the years : P

But with all the faith and strength I'm worth, I will try. And try harder if I could afford it.

PS: Brawl...Can't join GCO(Galaxy Chamber Orchestra)...I want to learn how to play violin!

"Gasp"

2009-03-31T16:37:00.000+08:00

I had a practical class for Web Page Design this morning. 8 AM class.

You know there are times when you want to skip reality and bury your head further into your pillow?

Yeah. This is one of those days for me. Yeap! Another bad morning.

Apparently, someone has one of his worst. My practical tutor was exceptionally quiet this morning. Too quiet compare to his usual self.Not to mention he looked a little...unwell. Then, he cleared his throat. And PAUSE. I was going "uh-oh" in my head when he did that.

Bad omen.

Then he spoke. And loud gasps drown the quiet atmosphere of the entire class as we heard his voice. No offense but it was very much like chalk grating against the chalk board as it had a scratchy edge to it. Some of my classmates sniggered(very mean of you guys), I just went "OMG, OMG".

Some peeps had premonition that this day would come awhile ago. He seems to have so much to do, teaching for hours and hours every day and rushing back and forth between Kampar and PJ campus. Not to mention all the homework and assignments piling on his desk. And he'd be having another lecture with us after this, with that throat of his.

As expected of the students, they laughed upon hearing his voice.

But just to put it in glaringly obvious words, don't get us wrong. I don't know about other classes, but our class's kids happens to like our tutor a lot. Because he was always so patient with us,making sure that we understand the details of what we're learning. And its so very fortunate for us that he is so dedicated.

I felt kind of guilty throughout the entire class. I don't know why but I just do. So i just kept my mouth shut during the entire time in his class.

Oh, and Mr.Pek came in. My friend practically push his asleep-friend awake. He woke up with bloodshot eyes, wondering whats going on. Mr Pek's intention was to present certificates for the achievers in our stream and those who had contributed for the stream like class reps, course rep and etc.

Then they actually posted all our results. Why do they post the second class bunch as well?

Mr. Pek can actually be quite funny. But judging from his sarcasm, his words could sting pretty
well too.

Then he told us not to torture our tutor any further. NO WAY. And faulty equipment like that mic cord should be changed. For goodness's sake!

WTH

2009-03-28T12:32:00.000+08:00

There MIGHT be some changes I have to adapt to in here: new housemates will be moving in and my he-housemate will be moving next door. No more big TV to play PS for him I guess.
Suppose we scares him off and so he requested to move?

What? I'd give it up to you,I have some fundamental decency,but can get very crazy with my imagination and critical in my speech. And my roommate and I have been friends for a long time now so I'm pretty honest with her.

I don't know why but I thought JP looked a little gloomy about the new arrangement. The fact is,I got used to he-housemate being in the house. With him, we don't really have to say much,except three words:Hi,bye and hello(more syllables lately). Apparently,he's more talkative in his car. The scent of his car makes him feel more comfortable perhaps.

My new housemates may be boys.Yes. Two of them I think,though I'm not entirely sure. There were supposed to be two girls originally because the house's owner wishes to make this lot a girls' dorm.

Starters, I like that idea. Why not? I can mingle with girls better than with boys. But according to my source, they're one difficult crowd. Some sort of rich kids who complains constantly,hard to impress and can be very,very noisy.And from a girl's point of view,yes. MOST girls tend to intricate things a little more than usual.

THEN,I got a premonition:the girls will be my new housemates instead. Logically speaking,
1)the house's owner's original intention was to make this an all girls dorm
2)they thought its in our best interest
3)Guys would prefer to stay with guys(don't know this for sure)

Then again,it mightn't be like that. And I refuse to present the debate of reasons here. I hadn't met the girls personally and it'd be too early for me to judge. But I do hope my source is exaggerating the fact that the two girls making lives miserable. If they're as what they're described as, I'll just have to bear with that don't I? And learn to deal with different types of people(good for my health also).

Or I can relocate into students' house. I'd thought of that,and the idea attracts and repels me at the same time. I would hate to go somewhere else after got used to being here and to abandon my roommate and her friends here. But if I relocate,its far more convenient for me to continue my practice and I can trouble people less(its quite a pain for them to pick me up and drop me off). And the rental should be cheaper too.

What now?

LOL

2009-03-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

The bills came. No,nothing's good about that. But something fun did pop up about two days ago due to the bills.

The bills were delivered by the house's owner's son,who collected them and pass it to my roommate because she happened to be home at the time. As everyone will only come home at the end of the day to split the bill,she left it on the dining table.

In the evening,one of my housemate(girl) came home and the first thing she saw was the bills.She walked right up to the table and exclaimed:"oh,the bills are here! Time to split them!" So she just knocked on the door of my other housemate's(guy) room,and asked him to come out to settle the bill.

After a bit of calculations,each of us had to pay RM 17.85. Obviously we'll have trouble looking for change. We made quite a bit of noise over that,and a little discussion went on between both my housemates(guy & girl).So,my roommate and I just stood aside quietly,watching her.

After a while,I got tired of holding and swinging the change in front of my she-housemate's face, so I placed it on the table and said:"Ok,it's yours.Settle it.Bye."and walked right off into my room.My roommate followed suit.Then my he-housemate saw what we did.Apparently he thought it looked funny,so he too,smiled and said:"There you go.You take care of it ya." And walked right off into his room AND slammed the door.LIKE THAT.Talk about walking away in style.

Well, HE took off after we(my roommate and I)did AND slammed the door.So,my turn! I slammed the door two seconds after he did,and laugh out loud inside the room while my she-housemate yelled at us.

My roommate and I still hadn't finish laughing as my she-housemate banged and pounded on the door. For the sake of our room's privacy,my roommate opened the door instead.Damn,that was impromptu!

And I thought my he-housemate isn't much fun...Hell,that was hilarious!

Sem 3 Week 3

2009-03-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

It's Week 3 in Short semester,and finals are so close...But,
my coursework marks are still ZEROs....Geez....

And IF:
Breakfast+Lunch=Brunch
then,
Dinner+Supper=???
"Dipper"?

Someday in dorm

2009-03-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

My first blog.

I feel bored..this is an ordinary day that couldn't be anymore....Ordinary.

But,I do have one new discovery:The walls of the house I'm currently in,is sickly permeable.To Sound.Yeah. The steady sound of rain and waterworks AND silence(thank God for small favors) pierce my ears at times,but I realized that my freedom of speech is at the mercy of the entire house and neighbourhood...

That's like so UNFAIR. Disgustingly,unfairrrrrrr!